It's funny how a few simple things can create a wave of homey memories. One of the girls at work has handwriting that is nearly identical to my older sister's, so I think of her every time I see it. Standing by a giant copy machine listening to the clunks and whirs make me think of my grandma. The mannerisms of one of the older office ladies makes me think of my grandma. The bottle of lotion sitting on the receptionist's desk makes me think of my grandma.
Ok, so offices make me think of grandma. She worked as bookkeeper for a Montessori school for years, and in the summers my sister and I would go help out. I remember watching the copy machine shoot out hundreds and hundreds of copies, staggering the stacks or printing on a rainbow of paper. She had pictures of us on her desk and I loved the frame that folded together like a little golden book. She always keep a bottle of lotion handy, and she always took off her rings before rubbing a scented squirt into her hands.
She always made us feel important as we helped out around the office, folding letters and watering plants. That's probably why I'm so comfortable in an office environment. She gave me great memories and aspirations.
I still miss her as much as I did that July day almost three years ago. I'm glad she got to meet Matt that summer, but heartbroken she couldn't be at our wedding this past December. There are so many things I have emotionally shared with her even though she couldn't be there physically. I know she knows, and I know she's happy where she is, but that doesn't stop me from missing her, and missing the time we had together.
"...Blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your glorious name..."